halo，好久好久都没有上来了 

我想真的有很久一段时间我都没有上来写东西了 ^^

现在的我真的开始了人生的新一个阶段，我有了自己的目标，学习着冲刺。

人生开始有了计划，不会像以前那样的，完全没有方向 

现在的我，烦恼不知道有几多也不知道有几少 

只是过着自己觉得开心的日子，不想每天忧愁 

能让自己开心，满足那就够了

身边的事物都变化了许多 

以前最要好的朋友都离开我身边了，因为我们都要为自己的目标奋斗

所以他们也都各自去实现自己的未来

而我也是继续做好我必要做的事情

很多东西都改变了，就连我自己都改变了许多许多

不是自夸，我身边的朋友都说我长大了 :D

我很开心，但是同时也很难过，我真的要跟以前的我说拜拜了 

好不舍得以前的自己，觉得以前的自己很天真无邪，傻傻的过每一天，无忧无虑没烦恼

甚至有时在烦的东西根本就不是烦恼，很傻很傻的以前，我都只能把这一切变成“以前” 

想想，我现在还在努力学习，被人家看不起？不，看不起也不会影响到我什么

反而只会成为我的动力。

难过的事，每一天都发生，开心的事也都没有消失过

对我而言，我希望开心的事情可以影响我多点

至少我可以开心的遗忘难过。

以前的我，哭一哭就没事了

现在的我，欲哭无泪。。

这样过虽很艰难，但是可以让自己更坚强，我觉得值得

虽然我是一个很天真的人，但是我发觉我可以看得很透很透，我的天真不是天真，只是我拿来欺骗自己的一个心情。

我希望把事情看得越简单越好。

不喜欢想多多复杂的事情，有时觉得做人真的很难，为什么要那么辛苦去想那么多东西

可是外面的社会就是要逼到我们这样的心态来面对每一个人每一件事 

我遇见的东西越来越多，好的坏的，真的假的，人面兽心的我都看到无言了

对我好的人，竟然可以是一个很冷漠很会演戏的人。

对我凶的人，却是一心要我成功的人 

所以说，世界上的矛盾有多么的多

就算你看的多透，人的心都是那么难猜测。

我的人生有多少的起起落落呢？

现在才十九岁，我面对的东西还是很少，还不够，等我出去做工的时候可能就有更多残忍的事情会发生在我身上

我不知道之后的路是怎样，我只想到以后的我一定要成功 

我要有自己的车，房子，我要带我家人出国旅行，如果我真的真的有本事

我当然想来个环游世界

但是我应该就只是带过想想吧，因为我相信我应该没有那么厉害 

能买到自己的车和房子已经是很有本事了*对我自己而言*

唉，我只想在我三十岁之前完成这些事情，可以吗？

我答应自己一定会很努力很努力！

我就是很难接受压力，我总是爱舒缓自己的压力，其实压力才是最大的动力，我要好好学习怎么去享受压力这玩意儿 :)

我要逼迫自己做自己不喜欢的东西，让自己去喜欢那个东西了就不会辛苦了不是吗？  :)

Emotional

I thought i can work hard to do revision for my exam . But i still keep lazy mood . No any action . Just keep wathing movie and facebook , waste time and find some sucks excuse .
What im gonna to do now ? Review my book and do revision is it ?
I just keep follow my emotion to do somethings important !
This time do not kidding !? But i still not care such things about exam !
Godsh !
wtf to my emotional !









#USELESS

Keep lazy

Hell ! What i'm going to doing on now ? Still lazy like a boss enjoying the holidays ! -.- wtf i'm doing ..
Monday is to be continue the exam , i just feel now is holiday , and no study any subject #Sigh
Next subject is Pendidikan Moral , need to do a revision and memorized  all the nilai and definisi , Dafuq still waste time here internet ?! Well , hope i can workhard tomorrow to study my own work :@ Stupidzhudanbee useless *

I will keep blogging daily , can learning more english words can help to improving my english language .
I gotta pratice more and upgrate my-own-self . Not bad , even everyday i going to keep fit status , i'm not feeling tired , cause i want become a pretty and clever girl ! So far i still keep fit , i suspend exercise , because of exam , but sometimes i still had to play badminton because of my friend date me. That is healthy and wholesome for body and life , i want to be a happy guy also :)

I won't give up , and will keep it up ! Make an all-out effort an each things at all ! <3 p="p">Keep smiling and take it easy @zhudanbee :)

What future for me ?

Hi , long time did'nt come blogging here . How about my life ? I am face a big exam SPM now , actually im not scare of this . Because is gonna finish , again three subject i have gonna finish my school life . The time is really fast , im already 18 years old . After SPM , i should find a job , i have to earn more and more money , i need money so much . I've to make myself become a beautiful girl , this is my wish . I hope i can improve my languge - English . I really love the languge of English . Because it is not hard and standard . I don't know how about my future , is it wonderful or nothing at all . Should be what i want ? God blessing me please .

Haiz , sometimes i was no confidence , my best friends is always had a courage to plan their future , but i have nothing to do to my future . Sigh# What's gonna happend to my future , i was blind to my future , nothing to my future , is darkness ! If can choose , i hope i got a good husband , he can protect me forever . Now i had . but is it can keep forever ? Previous untill now , i always rely my family and my friend include my boyfriend . I know i can't keep like that , but i really can't to change , sometimes i was hate myself , why i so useless !? Nothing is success , always make people to disappointed , what also failure .. Sigh#

School look :)

Hey ! Im back :) Long time didn blogging .. Haha ~ Almost forgot this blog for sharing about my life things ..
Hehe .. In now , i always exercise for keep fit .. Everyday must keep do exercise :) Whatever badminton or gym .. ;D Now is already nearly SPM .. next week is start my Trial exam , but i also nothing to do pratice or what .. Haiz ! Really trouble about it , and i hav somemore trouble , is PLKN :S maybe is next month i have to go to Pahang for the camp :( Really so far .. But i think i need to delay the camp , because i need to exam ..so i cant leave here now :) Still can meet my boy somemore time :P Yeah ♥♥♥  

This is my lovely spongebob stickers ! ♥ 

In this Holidays i arrange my room , hahaha look like a Little Princess Room :P 

Woohoo ~ ! Okay anot ? :) Pinky Queen :P 

And my boy is my lovely holidays partners ! But unfortunately he need to working :( So i just got abit time to accompany him . But i think he will missing me more and more ! :D ♥

Cute is it ? :) ♥ I Love Him FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFForever ! 

His birthday is coming soon ya , i already gift him a Toys ! Wish him will love it . 

Is Chess ! Hahahahaha , his favourite ~ I hope he will treasure it . 

Hohohoho , now i still keep fit , but really tired , always need exercise .. 

Some time i will think about some shortcut , like eat some weight loss products .. 

But i think somemore , i cant give up ! i think when i after PLKN , i will loss more oil ! haha 

I hope i can :) So , please quickly coming of plkn camp ! But i also not willing to my boy and family :'(

Lalalallalaa ! Nvm , is quick is it ? Okay what .. :) 

Do you know my breakfast is what ? 

That is my fav ! ♥

Hehheh ! Yummy ~ ! This is my bbreakfast and cannot to without of this everyday ! ♥

Oat porridge :D Sweet oat ♥

But fat also :( Why ? Because i no dieting ! Always chocolate and candy :( Godshhhh ! 

Boom ! This is my drawing ! Nice is it ? :P ♥ 

Some teachers teach :) 

Okay ! Need to rest now :) Good night buddys ! Do you see a panda ? hahhaa :3 Byeee !






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